Seriously, it's gonna be a short update since I walk around till midnight at town . I just had 4 hours of sleep.
First of all, I am obsessed with someone I recently knew, and yes, it's a girl. I ain't suppose to feel this way about her, but it's been a really long time since I felt this way about anyone. Can you call it love at first sight?
But too bad, I didn't grab the opportunity. She is forever lost to me now, unless... I really go and search out her contacts and everything.
I'm not a stalker and I'm scared to rejection.
So, I will probably still the cowardly me.
The thing about me, when I don't really have a proper girlfriend until now is basically the fact that I am really cowardly.
I am first, scared of rejection.
Secondly, I am also afraid of commitment and I may not be able to commit fully to a relationship.
Let's switch my topic 180 degrees.
My friends gave me the feedback that I have become arrogant, snobbish and pure flirty. What do I think about their comments? Pure gold.
Indeed, I am most of the time thinking I am right and everyone else wrong, and that I am a much better person overall than anyone else.
That thinking has to go, but how?
I'm afraid to become low-esteemed, confidence-lacking like last year when I was in depression again.
I value Rohanna and Sharir, because they are the only friends I have that dare to say the truth (no matter how it hurts) smack right in my face. I bet no one will ever take the effort to do that to me except them.
I shall try to balance between depression and over-confidence from now on.
